All I can say is holy shit!!!!
My buddies and I entered the bar totally down and out, cuz the sox were getting killed 7-0…and we drank, and drank and drank as they made the most amazing comeback in a postseason game…
THE SOX ARE STILL ALIVE BABY!!!!!!!!!!
So the past two night, I have had the weirdest dreams in a long time, mainly last nights…
I don’t know if it was caused by the scotch last night or what….
In the 1st one, I was in a class, and some girl was throwing paper balls at me…I talked to her after class giving her some item that shut her up, but the teacher wanted to know what happened or something, and I told her that I like another girl, not the one bothering me… afterwords I was swimming, and yet another girl I used to know a REALLY long time ago (about 6-7 years) just swims up to me and starts telling me that they’ve always had a crush on me and they want me then and there…so um yeah in the water….
Nextly I was in a brand new part of New Haven that was just created, and there was a fenced in area, I think I caught someone doing something, then they tried to knife me….next thing I know I’m carrying a weird Incredible Hulk gravesite playset o_O, I drop it and this kid starts smashing it, a huge crowd appears, and they all want to know who it was that I caught…I’m trying to manuever through the crowd as he keeps following me with the knife. I point as him and I think he’s caught….next thing a woman starts following me asking me questions, becoming increasingly errantic…finally as I walk near St. Mary’s school in my town, which is near the police station, she takes out a gun or knife and just flips out, then I somehow think that the kid was her son and it was a terrorist attack or something so all of a sudden the kid appears in my hands, I throw him to the ground, curb stomp him, and he’s gone. The woman hands me an envelope saying “For all the troubles I’ve caused you” and as I open it she laughs maniacally, and just before I wake up I notice, or assume that I noticed white powder in the envelope…Anthrax…
This is one of the most vivid, fucked up dreams I’ve had in a loooong time.
So about a week ago I heard from my ex, which was odd, since we had a major blow up this past May.
What’s good is our ability to forgive each other for the things that were said and everything in the past, and
tonight we actually talked on IM.
I’ll admit it was a little odd at first.
I mean yes I love her, and miss her a little because she was the first woman I truly connected with, and was truly happy with, and I would do anything for her and her daughter at the drop of a pin…but I guess I have actually moved on.
I’m so happy to hear that she’s at a good place in her life now,and despite all that has happened, deep down she is a good person, and deserves to have a good life.
I actually can’t believe I’m going to say this…but I would get back together with her in a heartbeat, just to find out what if…but as long as she’s happy, I’m happy for her and I’m going to keep living my life with or without her. I guess all that’s happened over the past 6 months has toughened me up a hell of a lot.
Ok I’ve been up almost 48 hours with a total of 5 hours of sleep separating the days…so I’m off the bed.
Goodnight everyone
