5000th tweet

So I guess instead of writing a traditional 5000th tweet, I’m writing a blog.

Some of you may find this corny or odd, but right now I really could care less.

When I first joined Twitter, I had no clue what to expect or what the hell Twitter even was. But almost 8 months, and 5000 tweets later here we are.

I’ve made some good friends, met a lot of great people, and so far had a lot of fun.

To all my friends out there, thank you for the follow, and sharing in lifes ups and downs with me through my first 5,000 tweets.  I never expected to meet such a kind and supportive group of people as you on twitter. We may not know each other personally, but we’re all there for each other. That means more to me than you will ever know. Thank you all so very much.

 

ONTO THE NEXT 5,000

NYC musings

So when I went to NYC, I brought a notepad, and wrote some really interesting thoughts down.

Life passes unaware

To them, I’m not here, nor am I there.

Just a shadow passing through space.

I frequent coffee houses and bars

leaving little trace

Here one second

Then gone the next

My life carries on

In these lingering texts.

These texts to be read,

to be felt, to be seen.

A lifetime of fading memories

played out on a screen.

What had I hoped to find in wake of what I’d lost?

Closure? Redemption? Or something more…

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I wrote much more, but that’s possibly for another day.

LIFE…

So it’s been a very long time since I’ve posted here.

But I feel the need to get some things off my mind.

In the past year my world has been turned completely upside down.

But this past year things have emotionally impacted me a lot harder than expected.

Last August, my aunt Cathy passed away in a car accident. She left behind my cousin and since then he’s been in and out of the hospital with a burst intestine, and complications from surgeries. Thankfully he’s better now.

Not a day goes by that we don’t think of her. We all talked to her every single day since her job caused her to move a lot, and we shared a special bond with her and my cousin.

I miss her and I love her.

Then yesterday, I found out that one of my old good friends sister’s Cassandra  passed away due to complications from surgery a few days ago and the wake was yesterday.

This girl had sent me a message just a few weeks ago, and I didn’t respond. I wish I had.
A little backstory. Cassandra’s brother Justin, our friend Sergio and I used to spend every day together, just riding around, playing baseball, or basketball. Us and Justin’s girlfriend at the time took many, many trips to NYC, had wild New Years parties and spent long nights playing Madden. We were like family. But we had a falling out when I was seeing this girl that they didn’t really like and put too much time into that.

We lost touch over the years, but I’ve ran into and talked with their families when they come into my work. Seeing my friend Justin and his family yesterday after all that’s happened was not easy. We reminded each other that we’re brother’s and always there for each other.

Today , Sergio’s mom came in and asked me if I heard about our little “Fluffy” passing and I told her I had. She said she wished we all patched up whatever bullshit happened in the past, because life is too damn short for that.

I’ll admit we were both in tears reminiscing about the years gone by. It led me to wonder where the hell did all the time go?

I just went to message Kasey and tell her the sad news, since shes out of the loop living in California..and found out she just became a mother.

It seems like just yesterday that we didn’t have a damn care in the world. We were young, stupid, naive kids who thought we knew everything. We thought we had it all figured out. We did what we wanted, we broke the rules, we didn’t think life would be this short for some of us.

All I can say is to tell your friends, and the people who mean something to you that you love them. You never know what’s going to happen.

Cathy and Cassandra, I love you both, and I miss you.