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These are my top 50 favorite musicians/bands.

50.  Seether

-Fake it  – Remedy – Broken – Gasoline

49. Blink 182

-Dammit – The Rock Show – Down – All The Small Things

48. Duran Duran

- Hungry Like The Wolf – The Reflex – Ordinary World

47. Bob Seager

-Night moves – We’ve Got Tonight – Against the Wind – Like A Rock

46. Peter Gabriel

-Sledgehammer – Steam – Big Time – In Your Eyes

45. Trapt

Stillframe – Echo – Waiting – Whose Going Home With You Tonight

44. Rolling Stones

-Gimme Shelter – (I Cant Get No) Satisfaction – Jumping Jack Flash – Paint It Black -

43. Nickelback

- Leader of Men – How you Remind Me – Too Bad – Animals – Savin Me – Burn it to the Ground

42. Elvis Pressly

Hound Dog – Love Me Tender-  Too Much – Fools Rush In

41. Motley Crue

Kickstart my Heart-  Girls, girls, girls – Dr. Feelgood – Home Sweet Home

40. Billy Joel

Why Should I worry – Only The Good Die Young – Big Shot – My Life  – Tell Her About it

39. KISS

-Rock n Roll All Nite – Beth – Detroit Rock City – Lick it Up – God Gave Rock n Roll To You

38. Black Crowes

- Hard To Handle – Twice as Hard-  Remedy – She Talks to Angels

38. Metallica

- Fuel – Master of Puppets – King Nothing

37. Run DMC

- Tricky – My Adidas – Walk this Way – King of Rock

36. Godsmack

Whatever – Love Hate Sex Pain – I Stand Alone – VooDoo – Bad Religion

35. Linkin Park

In The End – Papercut – Faint – Numb – What I’ve Done – New Divide – Waiting For The End – We Made It

34. Aerosmith

Mama Kin – Love in an Elevator – Pink – Sweet Emotion – Walk This Way – Rag Doll – The Other Side – Seasons of Wither

33. Jay-Z

Can I get a- Who you wit – Dirt off your shoulder – money,cash,hoes – Jigga what, jigga who – 99 Problems – D.O.A.

32. Kid Rock

Born Free – BullGod – Bawitdaba – Cocky – American BadAss – Lonely Road of Faith – Welcome 2 The Party – You Never Met a Motherfucker Quite Like Me – Amen – All Summer Long

31. Evanescence

Bring Me To Life-  My Immortal – Whisper – Taking Over Me – Even In Death – Away From Me – Lithium – My Last Breath – Sweet Sacrifice

30. 3 Doors Down

Loser – Be Like that – Kryptonite – Behind Those Eyes- Its Not My Time – Landing In London – When You’re Young – Here By Me – Away From The Sun – Train

29. Jimmy Eat World

Night Drive – Work – Hear You Me – My Sundown – Pain – Futures – The Middle

28. Better Than Ezra

Good – Juicy – A Lifetime – Rosealia – Porcelain – Desperately Wanting – At The Stars – Under You – Extra Ordinary

27. Green Day

Whatsername – She – American Idiot-  Brain Stew – Longview- Welcome to Paradise – Warning

26. Fleetwood Mac

Tusk – Black Magic Woman – Rhiannon – Dreams – Go Your Own Way – You Make Lovin Fun – Sara – Little Lies – Hold Me – Everywhere – The Chain – Landslide

25. Foo Fighters

Times Like These – Monkey Wrench – Everlong (acoustic) – My Hero – All My Life – Best of You – Wheels – My Poor Brain – Learn To Fly – Aurora – Low – Overdrive

24. Tom Petty

Breakdown – American Girl – The Waiting – Free Falling – Running Down a Dream – Wont Back Down – Learning to Fly – Mary Janes Last Dance – Yer So Bad – All The Wrong Reasons

23. Genesis/Phil Collins

Abacab – Land of Confusion – Turn it On Again – Misunderstanding – Invisible Touch – In Too Deep – I Cant Dance – In The Air Tonight – Domino – Cant Hurry Love – Two Hearts – Groovy Kind of Love – Sussudio – Easy Lover

22. Guns N’ Roses

Welcome To The Jungle – There Was A Time – Patience – Live and Let Die – Paradise City- Sweet Child of Mine – Out ta Get Me – The Garden – Perfect Crime – Mr. Brownstone

21. Pearl Jam/Eddie Vedder

-Alive – Jeremy – Daughter – Evenflow – Last Kiss – Big Hard Sun – Oceeans – Black – Why Go – Blood – Go

20. Daughtry

What I meant to Say – Home – Over You – Crashed- Life After You – September – Used To – There and Back Again – No Surprise – Ghost of Me-  Call Your Name – Supernatural

19. The Script

For The First Time – Science and Faith – Lose Yourself (eminem cover) – Man Who Cant Be Moved – Breakeven – Rusty Halo – If You See Kay – Before The Worst – Dead Man Walking – Exit Wounds – Walk Away

18. Live

I Alone – Selling The Drama – Dolphins Cry – Hold Me Up – Lightning Crashes- All Over you – Heaven – The River – Lakinis Juice – Top – Horse – Ghost – Turn My Head

17.   .38 Special

Rockin’ Into The Night – Hold On Loosely – Second Chance – Caught Up In You – If I’d Been The One – Fantasy Girl – Bring It On -Firestarter – Chain Lightnin’

16. Shinedown

If You Only Knew – Sound of Madness – Devour – Call me – Cyanide Sweet Tooth Suicide -  Diamond Eyes – Save Me – Heroes – Second Chance – Burning Bright – Fly From The Inside – Simple Man (skynyrd cover) – I Dare You

15. Bon Jovi

-Living on a Prayer – 99 In The Shade – Always – You Give Love a Bad Name -Wanted Dead or Alive- Its My Life – Bed of Roses – Never Say Goodbye – Real Life – Without Love-  Judgement Day – I Want You – Dry County – Damned – One Wild Night – Have A Nice Day – Misunderstood – Bad Medicine – Ill be There For You

14.  Stone Temple Pilots

Plush – Sex Type Thing – Wicked Garden – Skin – Dead and Bloated – Interstate Love Song – Vasoline

13. Red Hot Chili Peppers

Snow – Fortune Faded – Under The Bridge – Californication – Knock me Down – Suck My Kiss – Breaking the girl – Otherside – naked in the rain – dani california – Around the world -  Scar Tissue – Tell Me Baby – Hump de Bump – Hard To Concentrate

12. Van Halen

Eruption – Poundcake – Why Cant this Be Love- Humans Being – Panama – Best of Both Worlds – Dreams – You Really Got Me – Hot For Teacher -Can’t Stop Lovin’ You – Feelin’ – Jamie’s Cryin’ – Runaround-  Running With The Devil – Right Now – Dance The Night Away – Once – Aftershock – Strung Out – Spanked

11. Staind

Home – Its Been Awhile – Price  to Play – Zoe Jane – Mudshovel – All I Want- Believe – How About You – Fade – Epiphany – Suffer -Outside – So Far Away – Blow Away-

10. Collective Soul

Why part II – Gel – Heavy – Shine – Under Heavens Skies  – Hollywood – Georgia girl – She said – Run – Precious Declaration – NexT Homecoming – December – The World I Know – Energy -

9 The Beatles

I’ll make it easy…. EVERYTHING

8. Dave Matthews Band

Tripping Billies – Crash – Too Much – What Would you Say – The Space Between – American Baby – Ants Marching – Dont Drink The Water – Everyday – Stay

7. Keith Urban

Days go By – You Look Good in My Shirt – Where the Blacktop Ends – You’re Not My God – Georgia Woods – Put You in a Song – Better Life – Jeans On – You’ll Think of Me – Long Hot Summer -

6. July For Kings

Champagne – Meteor Flower – Believe – Start Again – Bed of Ashes – And Gomorra – Rain – New Black Car

5. Journey

Dont Stop Believing – Lights – Wheel in the Sky – Faithfully – Lovin’ Touchin’ Squeezin – Any Way You Want It – Who’s Crying Now – Open Arms – Stone In Love

4.  AC/DC

Highway To Hell – Whole Lotta Rosie – Big Balls – Long Way to the Top – Rock n Roll Train – Shook Me All Night Long – Thunderstruck – Hells Bells – Back in Black – Dirty Deeds – TNT – Live Wire – Badlands – For Those About To Rock – Snowballed – Ride On – Shoot To Thrill – Who Made Who

3. Def Leppard

Armageddon It, Pour Some Sugar on Me – Love Bites – Promises – Animal – Photograph – Rock of Ages – Foolin’ – Rocket – Two Steps Behind – Heaven Is – Hysteria

2. Boston

Dont Look Back – Amanda – Smokin’ – Foreplay/Longtime – Feelin’ Satisfied – Peace of Mind – More Than a Feeling

1. U2

Bad – City of Blinding Lights – Discoteque – With or Without You – Where the Streets Have No Name – Numb – Vertigo – Beautiful Day – Pride (In The Name of Love) – Bullet The Blue Sky – Desire – Walk On – Electrical Storm – Mysterious Ways – One – Stuck in a Moment – Staring At The Sun – Your Blue Room – All I Want is You – Elevation – New York – Kite – All Because of You – Sometimes You Cant Make it On Your Own -

I’ll admit I was young and naive at the time, and I thought I knew what love was back then, thought I had everything figured out. Well as this year has taught me..Very much not so. None of these are about anyone in particular, but written with the thought of love, of romance.

Romance is the glamour which turns the dust of everyday life into a golden haze.
-Elynor Glyn

All lyrics are copyrighted.

Starting with my crowning glory. I really love the way this song came out lyrically.

(And I) Knew What Love Was

WHEN WILL IT END

The sun is setting
on another day
It shimmers on the water
across the bay
and I walk
along the pierAll the while saying
(two drum beat)
I wish you were here.

I wish you were by my side
in times of triumph
I wish you were by my side
in times of grief
I wish you were by my side
on the coldest nights
but we all know that you’re the theif
You stole my heart  (whoa)
It tore me apart (yeah) yes it did
and now I’m left..
pickin up pieces
and I don’t know where to begin
when will it end.
The tide may come
and tear us apart again
but no matter what
you’ll be in my heart my friend
and in my heart
you shall remain
though times may change
my heart stays the same
Chorus:
I wish you were by my side
in times of joy
I wish you were by my side
in times of grief
I wish you were by my side
on the coldest nights
but we all know that you’re the theif

You stole my heart  (whoa)
It tore me apart (yeah) yes it did
and now I’m left..
pickin up pieces
and I don’t know where to begin
when will it end.

Grain of Sand

Am I just a grain of sand

upon your beach of memories?

A leaf floating by up in the sky

that’s caught up in the breeze

Or am I something more

something pure

something right

something true

will I ever get a chance

to be more to you

Whatever it takes

Yeah, that’s what I’ll do

Cuz one look from you

it sets me on fire and lights up the sky

yeah it takes me higher and I think I can fly

It leaves me wanting so much more

much more than I’ll ever have

UNDER THE COVERS

New bands, and old songs, the relationship between the two can at times be a great thing, or can be comparable to Whitney and Bobby, but a bunch of up and coming bands hope to take a stab at it on the Punk Goes 90s CD which was released on May 9th.
Put out by Fearless Records, the little label that could, and primarily fueled by their myspace page (www.myspace.com/punkgoes90s), which at the time of this writing has had 365,239 plays since mid-March, Punk Goes 90s, the fifth installment in the Punk Goes series looks to tap into the popular music of the 90s.
This CD features eighteen tracks from bands such as The Starting Line, Emery, and the Plain White Ts covering the songs from the generation that brought us 90210, Nirvana, and those damn things called Beanie Babies.the 90s.
As for the topic of cover songs, sure, the original songs are great and all, but after a while of hearing the same song, sung the same way, it gets tiring. But fear not, thats where cover songs come in… Most of the time. Sometimes they can breathe new life into old songs, while paying homage to the original artist, and other times they can just suck.

Scary Kids Scaring Kids keyboardist Pouyan, whose band covered the R.E.M smash hit Losing My Religion, said “None of the members are really fans of R.E.M., but we liked that song, and the lyrics.” Also “covering a song like that was a more challenging choice for the band”, and according to him, they had to step it up, and mix his bands style with the original version. When asked what it meant to him, to be given the chance to cover such a hit song, he said “Its awesome. That song had such a huge impact”. However he feels that some cover songs are good, if done well, but believes that bands should concentrate on original music.

Brian Leppke, the guitarist from metal band Bleeding Through (whose band departed their roots and performed a dead on cover of the song Stars by HUM) said that his band chose that song because a few of the songs they wanted to cover were already chosen, and the band felt HUM was overlooked. When asked why Bleeding Through, a metal band, joined the Punk Goes series, he replied “Just because that type of music, the songs they gave us to pick from were big when we were growing up, and I mean, its awesome, its cool that we have opportunities to do stuff like this.”
When asked how he felt about cover songs, he had a different take than Pouyan, saying “A lot of bands were broken from cover (songs), like Limp Bizkit, its a fun thing”

Some of the highlights on this CD include Gym Class Heroes hip-hop/punk rock version of the Red Hot Chilli Peppers smash hit Under The Bridge, Anberlins lively cover of the Depeche Mode song Enjoy The Silence, and the Killing Moons screamo cover of Alanis Morissettes  jagged little hit You Oughtta Know. However the three best songs on this CD are a simply amazing cover of Wonderwall by Cartel, which is fueled primarily by a non acoustic guitar, as the original was done, the punkish sounding cover of Hey Jealousy by music industry rookies Hit The Lights, and last but not least, internet sensation Bedlight for Blue Eyes emotionally charged acoustic version of Third Eye Blinds song Jumper.

This CD is sure to bring you back to the times  before music became too commercial, so if you liked the music of the 90s, or are a fan of any band featured, you should definitely check out this album.
Also Gym Class Heroes, Emery, and the Plain White Ts are all appearing on this years lineup of the Warped Tour, which is set to hit the Fitchburg Airport, in Fitchburg Massachusetts on Wednesday, August 2nd. Tickets for this event are available on www.tickets.com.

12 Stones – Lie to me

3 doors down – its not my time

30 Seconds to Mars – Kings and Queens

30 Seconds to Mars – This is War

38 Special – Caught Up In You

38 Special – If Id Been the one

38 Special – Rockin Into the night

Adam Lambert – No Boundaries

Adam Lambert – Whataya Want From Me

Adelitas Way – Closer To You

Adelitas Way – Hate Love

Adelitas Way – Last Stand

Aerosmith – Shut Up and Dance

American Bang – Wild And Young

American Hi-Fi – The Art Of Losing

Anberlin – Paperthin Hymn

Anberlin – The Feel Good Drad

B.o.B. – Airplanes

B.o.B. – Nothin’ on you

Bad Company – Bad Company

Ben E. King – Stand By Me

Big Star – Thirteen

Bill Medley and Jennifer Warnes – (Ive had the) Time of my life

Bon Jovi – Living on a prayer

Bon Jovi – We Werent Born to Follow

Boston – More than a feeling

Boston – Peace of Mind

Boys Like Girls – Thunder

Boys Like Girls – 2 is better than 1

Brad Paisley – Shes everything

Brad Paisley – then

Brad Paisley – Water

Brad Paisley w/KU – Start a band

Breaking Benjamin – Blow Me Away

Breaking Benjamin – Give me a sign

Bryan Adams – All For Love

Buckcherry – Lit Up

Bush – Comedown (acoustic)

Bush – The Chemicals Between us

Carolina Liar – Beautiful World

Carolina Liar – I’m Not Over

Cary Brothers – Ride (tiesto remix)

Cavo – Champagne

Chad Fischer – The score from the rocker

Chingy – Holidae In

Civil Twilight – Human

Civil Twilight – Letters From The Sky

Civil Twilight – Something She said

Colbie Caillat – I never Told You

Colbie Caillat – One Fine Wire

Cold – Suffocate

Coldplay w/ Jay-Z-  Lost+

Collective Soul – Energy

Collective Soul – Next Homecoming

Collective Soul – Shine

Collective Soul – Why Pt. 2

Color Me Badd – I wanna sex you up

Darius Rucker – Forever Road

Daryl Hall and John Oates – You Make My Dreams Come True

Daughtry – Every Time You Turn Around

Daughtry – Learn My Lesson

Daughtry – Life After You

Daughtry – Open Up your Eyes

Daughtry – Supernatural

Daughtry – Used To

Daughtry – What Have We Become

Daughtry – What I Meant To Say

David Bowie – Modern Love

Deep Purple – Hush

Diddy – Hello Good Morning

Def Leppard cover = Armageddon It

Def Leppard cover – Photograph

Drake – Forever

Drake – Miss Me

Drake – Unforgettable

Drowning Pool – Feel Like I Do

Eddie Money – Take Me Home Tonight

Elvis – Burning Love

Eminem – Not Afraid

Enrique Iglesias – I Like It

Evanescence – Bring Me To Life

Finch – Letters To You

Finley Quaye/William Orbit – Dice

Framing Hanley – Lollipop

Foreigner – I want to know what love is

Gatsbys American Dream – Just Like Heaven

Green Day – Welcome To Paradise

Greg Kihn Band – Breakup Song

Head East – Never Been Any Reason

Heart – Alone

Hellyeah – Alcohaulin’ Ass

HIM – Wicked Game

Hinder – Nothin’ Good About Goodbye

Hinder – Up all Night

Hinder – Use Me

Hit The Lights – Hey Jealousy

Hit The Lights – More Than a Feeling

Huey Lewis and the News – Do You Believe in Love

India.Arie – Heart of the Matter

Iyaz – Solo

Jackson Browne – Running On Empty

James Blunt – Goodbye My Lover

Jason Derulo – In My Head

Jason Derulo – The Skys the limit

Jason Derulo – What if

Jay sean -Down

Jay -Z – Empire State Of Mind

Jay – Z  – PSA

Jay-Z – Young Forever

Jay-z/Linkin Park – Jigga What/Faint

Jimmy Eat World – Night Drive

John Legend – If you’re out there

John Mayer – Half of my heart

John Mayer – Heartbreak warfare

Johnny Cash – Hurt

Joshua Radin/Schuyler Fisk – Paperweight

Journey – Anyway You want it

Journey – Dont Stop Believing

Journey – Faithfully

Journey – Lights

Journey – Open Arms

July For Kings – Anything But Beautiful

July For Kings – Bed of Ashes

July For Kings – Believe

July For Kings – Champagne

July For Kings – Normal Life

July For Kings – Start Again

July For Kings – Without Wings

Keith Urban – ‘Til Summer Comes Around

Keith Urban – Got It Right This Time (the celebration)

Keith Urban – I Told You So

Keith Urban – I’m In

Keith Urban – Kiss a Girl

Keith Urban – My Heart is Open

Keith Urban – Only You Can Love Me This Way

Keith Urban – Romeos Tune

Keith Urban – Somebody Like You

Keith Urban – Stupid Boy

Kevin Rudolf – I Made It

Kevin Rudolf – Welcome To the World

Kings Of Leon – Notion

Kris Allen – Live Like We’re Dying

Lady Gaga – Alejandro

Lady Gaga – Bad Romance

Lenny Kravitz – Fly Away

Life of Agony – Dont You (Forget about me)

Lifehouse – Everything

Lifehouse – Halfway Gone

Lifehouse – Hanging by a moment

Lifehouse – Sick Cycle Carousel

Lifehouse – Spin

Lil Wayne – Drop The World

Lil Wayne – Mr. Carter

Lil Wayne – Prom Queen

Linkin Park – Bleed It Out

Lionel Richie – Dancing On The Ceiling

Live – All Over You

Live – Hold Me Up

Ludacris – Get Back

Madonna – 4 Minutes

Michelle Branch – Breathe

Michelle Branch – Everywhere (acoustic)

Midtown – Your Love

Mushroomhead – Crazy

MXPX – Play it Loud

Natalie Merchant – Carnival

Natalie Merchant – Kind and Generous

Ne-yo – Part Of The List

New Found Glory – The Glory Of Love

Nickelback – Burn it to the ground

Nickelback – How You Remind Me

Nickelback – Leader of Men

Nonpoint – In The Air Tonight

Oasis – Wonderwall

Our Lady Peace – Super Mans Dead

Papa Roach – M80

Patrick Swayze /Wendy Fraser – Shes Like The Wind

Paula Abdul – Promise of a new day

Poison – Nothin’ But a Good Time

Pop Evil – 100 in a 55

Pop Evil 100 in a 55 (acoustic)

Pop Evil – Another Romeo and Juliet

Pop Evil – Hero

Pop Evil – Somebody Like You

Pop Evil – Somebody Like You (acoustic)

Puddle of Mudd – Famous

Puddle of Mudd – Spin You Around

Rascal Flatts – Fast Cars and Freedom

Rascal Flatts – My Wish

Rascal Flatts – These Days

Red Hot Chili Peppers – Hard To Concentrate

Red Hot Chili Peppers – Tell Me Baby

Rev Theory – Hell Yeah

Rev Theory – Light It Up

Richard Marx- Right Here Waiting

Richy Nix – In My Head

Rob Zombie – Dragula (Si non oscillas, No Tintinnare remix)

Robin Thicke – Everything I cant Have

Roxette – The Look

Rufio – Dont You Forget About Me

Rufio – Like a Prayer

Saliva – Click Click Boom

Savage Garden – Truly Madly Deeply

Secondhand Serenade – Fall For You

Semisonic – Closing Time

Sevendust – Enemy

Sevendust – Face To Face

Sevenust – Praise

Shinedown – Burning Bright

Shinedown – Devour

Shinedown – I Dare You

Shinedown – If You Only Knew

Shinedown – Second Chance

Shinedown – Sound of Madness

Shontelle – Impossible

Sir Mix a Lot – Baby Got Back

Skindred – Set it Off

Smile Empty Soul – Bottom of a Bottle

Snow Patrol – Chasing Cars

Snow Patrol – Set Fire To the Third Bar

Soil – Halo

Soil – Redefine

Spice Girls – 2 Become 1

Staind – All I want

Staind – Believe

Staind – Its Been Awhile

Staind – Outside

Staind – Price To Play

Staind – Right Here

Staind – So Far Away

Staind – Zoe Jane

Steve Winwood – Higher Love

Steve Winwood – Valerie

Stone Temple Pilots – Interstate Love Song

Stone Temple Pilots – Plush (acoustic)

Student Rick – Heaven is a place on earth

Survivor – High On You

Switchfoot – On Fire

Taio Cruz – Break Your Heart

Taylor Swift – Crazier

Teddy Geiger – Living For The First Time

The Airborne Toxic Event – Sometime around Midnight

The Black Crowes – Remedy

The Hives – Tick Tick Boom

The Mooney Suzuki – 99%

The Script – Breakeven

The Script – Im Yours

The Veronicas – Untouched

Theory of a Deadman – All or Nothing

Theory of a Deadman – Heaven (little by little)

Theory of a Deadman – Save The Best for Last

Theory Of a Deadman – Since You’ve been gone

Toad The Wet Sprocket – Somethings Always wrong

Trapt – Whose Going home with you tonight

Trustcompany – Downfall

U2 – Angel of Harlem

U2 – Bad

U2 – City of Blinding Lights (2005 live from Milan)

U2 – I Will Follow

U2- Ultraviolet (Light my way)

U2 – Walk On

U2- Where the streets have no name

U2 – With or Without you

Uncle Kracker – Smile

Van Halen – Best of Both Worlds

Van Halen – Dreams

Van Halen – When Its Love

Van Morrison – Into The Mystic

Vega4 – Life Is Beautiful

Vesuvius – Pompeii Nights

We The Kings – Caught Up in you

White Lion – Radar Love

Young Money – Every Girl

ZZ Top – Sharp Dressed Man

Some of you may find this corny or odd, but right now I really could care less.

When I first joined Twitter, I had no clue what to expect or what the hell Twitter even was. But almost 8 months, and 5000 tweets later here we are.

I’ve made some good friends, met a lot of great people, and so far had a lot of fun.

To all my friends out there, thank you for the follow, and sharing in lifes ups and downs with me through my first 5,000 tweets.  I never expected to meet such a kind and supportive group of people as you on twitter. We may not know each other personally, but we’re all there for each other. That means more to me than you will ever know. Thank you all so very much.

ONTO THE NEXT 5,000

Life passes unaware

To them, I’m not here, nor am I there.

Just a shadow passing through space.

I frequent coffee houses and bars

leaving little trace

Here one second

Then gone the next

My life carries on

In these lingering texts.

These texts to be read,

to be felt, to be seen.

A lifetime of fading memories

played out on a screen.

What had I hoped to find in wake of what I’d lost?

Closure? Redemption? Or something more…

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I wrote much more, but that’s possibly for another day.

But I feel the need to get some things off my mind.

In the past year my world has been turned completely upside down.

But this past year things have emotionally impacted me a lot harder than expected.

Last August, my aunt Cathy passed away in a car accident. She left behind my cousin and since then he’s been in and out of the hospital with a burst intestine, and complications from surgeries. Thankfully he’s better now.

Not a day goes by that we don’t think of her. We all talked to her every single day since her job caused her to move a lot, and we shared a special bond with her and my cousin.

I miss her and I love her.

Then yesterday, I found out that one of my old good friends sister’s Cassandra  passed away due to complications from surgery a few days ago and the wake was yesterday.

This girl had sent me a message just a few weeks ago, and I didn’t respond. I wish I had.
A little backstory. Cassandra’s brother Justin, our friend Sergio and I used to spend every day together, just riding around, playing baseball, or basketball. Us and Justin’s girlfriend at the time took many, many trips to NYC, had wild New Years parties and spent long nights playing Madden. We were like family. But we had a falling out when I was seeing this girl that they didn’t really like and put too much time into that.

We lost touch over the years, but I’ve ran into and talked with their families when they come into my work. Seeing my friend Justin and his family yesterday after all that’s happened was not easy. We reminded each other that we’re brother’s and always there for each other.

Today , Sergio’s mom came in and asked me if I heard about our little “Fluffy” passing and I told her I had. She said she wished we all patched up whatever bullshit happened in the past, because life is too damn short for that.

I’ll admit we were both in tears reminiscing about the years gone by. It led me to wonder where the hell did all the time go?

I just went to message Kasey and tell her the sad news, since shes out of the loop living in California..and found out she just became a mother.

It seems like just yesterday that we didn’t have a damn care in the world. We were young, stupid, naive kids who thought we knew everything. We thought we had it all figured out. We did what we wanted, we broke the rules, we didn’t think life would be this short for some of us.

All I can say is to tell your friends, and the people who mean something to you that you love them. You never know what’s going to happen.

Cathy and Cassandra, I love you both, and I miss you.

Tonight is Grammy night!!, as all my loyal readers know, music is my life. I’ve written lyrics, and my head is filled with so much music knowledge…

U2 kicked off the show with their new song Sexy Boots. It’s good to see them rockin’ for so many years, and not missing a beat. I saw them in 2001, and hope they come around again.

I can’t wait for Coldplay and Jay-Z to perform Lost+ tonight, this is a song that I believe should be up for numerous awards in both the rock and rap category.

Ok it’s now 9:15 and I found out I missed Coldplay and Jay-Z…but thank God for youtube.

Right now the Jonas Brothers are performing with Stevie Wonder, which I believe is a great thing for the music industry, as it bridges the generational gap…DAMN that performance was insane.

Blink 182 are getting back together! Holy Shit! I’ve seen them about 3 times, and each time, they rocked the fuckin house.

I’m so glad Travis Barker and DJ AM survived that plane crash.

9:30 Damn Katy Perry as the Chiquita banana girl…sooo fuckin sexy..but nowhere was the “my Grammy moment” contest winner…odd.

Now the song I cant stand, eventhough it’s catchy… Estelle w/Kanye – American Boy….Wonder if he’ll stay on stage to sing Swagga Like Us with M.I.A., T.I., Jay-Z, And Lil Wayne …ugh there he goes bitching again about not getting the best new artist Grammy…

Aww how cute, Adele…she deserved it with her soulful voice…and she’s kinda cute…plus if the Jonas Brothers won..what kind of message would that say about the RIAA?

Ok they just had the Swagga like us performance with TI, Lil Wayne, Kanye, Jay-Z and a very pregnant MIA (shes due today)…

After a very fitting introduction by Kate Beckinsale…now it’s time for the legendary Sir Paul McCartney.

10pm:

…Jack Black is not funny when it’s unscripted….

Ok here comes Adele, I expect a lot from her over the next few years.

Ok her performance of Chasing Pavements with Sugarland has given me a newfound respect for Country music. I’ll admit there are a few artist’s I like here and there, but it’s not my main genre of music to listen to, but that performance was simple amazing.

TI is the fuckin man! He had TWO of his songs performed tonight!

This guy, while he is the recording academy’s president…always gives the worst speeches..and please tell me he didn’t just cop Obama’s “Yes We Can”…just wow.

Neyo, Jaime Foxx, Smokey Robinson and the 1 remaining member of the Four tops performing the Mo-Town classic “I’ll Be There”…this is such an iconic moment in my opinion, and I am truly blessed to be able to witness it.

Mo-town is one of the leading reasons that many of today’s artist’s exist, and not many people under the age of 20 will understand just how much of a moment they just witnessed….BEST PERFORMANCE OF THE NIGHT!

Neil Diamond’s singing now, and this is a huuuge letdown that he’s basically speaking the words instead of singing…BUT I love the fact the crowd is taking a page out of Fenway Park and singing “So Good” the way Red Sox fans love to.

Ok I’m a bit morbid…I love the In Memoriam part, because it’s always nice to reflect upon how much of an inspiration those who have passed on have had on the music industry.

Lil Wayne is giving one hell of a performance now. Much love the New Orleans and the music it has given us.

Ok They just announced Album of the year..Robert Plant and Allison Krauss…not that good in my opinion, was hoping Coldplay or Lil Wayne would get it..but oh well.

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I remember coming home from school and watching TRL religiously as I’m sure many of you have.

For me, as someone who has made music his life, this is especially sad.

In the 24 hours preceding the TRL finale the only music videos found on the network were in the replay of the finale and the premiere of Rihanna’s “Rehab” video. This truly is the death of a facet of the music industry. TRL and MTV were the quintessential launching pads for many, many careers in the music and entertainment industry, and to see what MTV has become just sickens me.

Gone are the epic video premiere’s that they hyped for weeks, gone are the interview’s, the classic moments, and possibly the VMA’s…now it’s drivel like “The Hills” that has taken over the airwaves.

I wish I could write more, but I am pressed for time…

My last statement is to any and all music lovers.

Please rally together and save the music industry. We NEED a show like TRL and a network that’s devoted to videos and music, as MTV used to be. We NEED to do something fast. If any musicians/celebs find their way to my blog, PLEASE, PLEASE, PLEASE don’t hesitate to contact me. I would be willing to put my savings into any new Music Video outlet, as there is a need for it.